Unexpectedly watching an ex-FWB succeed at a sex club - and cheering him on
I’m optimistic about my ability to navigate this swinger world… feelings and all. It’s all about respect and trust. Turns out you can not be a match with someone sexually anymore and still be friends. And it feels good.
I’m going on an emotional diet… from men who are luke warm about fucking me
My issue isn’t with casual sex… it’s that I was upfront about what I wanted out of it… Ongoing casual sex. Not a fuck and chuck. Not a one-hit wonder. Yet that seems to be what I am getting in return. Either the men I engage with are being dishonest with their intentions, or it’s hopeless to find a casual FWB to fuck me more than 3 times.
When feelings change…
There is a silence where there used to be buzzing
There is a loneliness where there used to be fullness
There is confusion where there used to be smiles
There is a sobering up of the heart
What do women want? We want to feel special to you.
When I feel so special to a man that I smile when I think about him… it’s like temporary anesthesia in my jealousy energy… nothing hurts cause I feel so good. He could literally have on orgy at Comic-Con on the weekend and as long as he didn’t miss a beat in our dynamic I would be entirely happy for him. Funny isn’t it?